Saturday, June 14, 2008

HUG ME



HUG ME




The word "Operation" entails so much of uncertainty and fear in our mind that no words can put any balm on it. Today I saw her sitting next to her daughter’s bed, trying to appear as normal as possible। My friend was confidence personified। If she had any doubts or fears about her impending surgery in the evening, she comflauged them beautifully। We chatted happily just like old times as if we have met for our addabazi sessions and soon it was time for me to leave.
Casually I touched aunty’s shoulder just to reassure her and suddenly there was a deafening silence.The room was filled with her silent sobs. She clung to me tightly as if she is holding on to her life. I hugged her tightly for several minutes till her frail frame calmed down. She moved away from me saying she is alright. She was a little embarassed. Feebly she tried expaining to me why she did what she did, as if hugging was wrong behaviour. I reassured her that it was perfectly alright and I do understand. In last 25 years, from the time I know her, this was the first time that we ever touched each other though I have been very close to her daughter and have spent hours together at her place happily chatting away. Aunty has been very much part of those chatting sessions. She has always come across as a very strong, enlightened, empowered , no-nonsense lady. She has been a natural part and parcel of our group.

In meantime the nurse came and drove all of us out of the room and once again I started the ritual of taking leave from her by saying don’t worry. Once again very awkwardly she reached out to me and we were in each others’ arms for several minutes. Her grandson looked away feeling little uneasy at this open display of emotions that too at public place. But both of us were oblivious to his discomfort. This was the first time she was conveying to me that she also needs to lean on somebody just like I have leaned on her several times for emotional support in times of crisis. I have to yet get over this experience .

Several thoughts and memories are clouding my mind. Last year, I had organized a workshop on personality development for my students. There was a session on improving self esteem . One of the girls ,in spite of trainer’s best efforts, just could not muster courage to speak out a word. With the permission of the trainer, I decided to reach out to that girl. That girl’s self confidence was so low that I had to really strain my ears to hear what she is saying even while standing next to her. I casually put my arm around her shoulder while encouraging her to speak. That physical touch did wonders. Gradually the girl started opening up and at the end of it I lightly hugged her as a mark of appreciation. You should have seen the happy grin on her face. I don’t think I can forget that happy look very easily. I was moving towards my seat when I heard another girl, a chatter box, calling out to me. I turned around and looked at her questioningly and she said ,”Miss, mere ko bhi chahiye”. I just laughed and obliged her, thinking what a baby she is even at this age.

I remember in childhood, whenever I saw my parents hugging my younger brothers, I experienced a tinge of jealousy. Even when I was in college, I think I felt happy to fall sick because that was the only time now when my mother lovingly ran her fingers through my hair. I could not tell her that even though I have grown up, but I still cherish her affectionate strokes.
Generally in Punjabi culture, hugging is a way of greeting a close friend or a relative. If the friend or relative is of same gender the hug will be tight embrace and if the relative is a very close relative and of opposite gender a lighter hug may take place or at least the hand will be held, though it is not a shake hand. But in modern times this traditional greeting has given way to saying hello from far away with no embraces, just the hands are held. After marriage, I felt awkward to greet my mother with a hug whenever I met her . Later on I realized that she also felt awkward to tell me that she wanted to hug me but held back because she felt that I may not appreciate it . It was at the time of my father’s death and thereafter that we bonded again in that way . Now I try hugging my son as many times as I can( which is very rare) though he feels awkward.

When I think of it, I feel hugs are good, they relax both the parties . Hugs are needed at every age and not just in childhood. They are needed more in old age as a way of reassurance that these old people are still relevant and accepted in the society. Though one needs to differentiate between mechanical hugs (more as a part of ritual requirement) and warm hugs. Mechanical hugs are disgusting while warm hugs are rejuvenating.

I was looking out for material on non-verbal communication and my observations about hugs got vindicated by following site. God bless these children.

http://www.freehugscampaign.org/forum/viewtopic.php?f=7&t=5779#p15383

13 comments:

Gyandutt Pandey said...

oh, yes, yes! Golu Pandey (my late dog) always demanded touching and hugging from we family members.
It indeed strengthens bonds.

anitakumar said...

Gyan ji
Baat sirf jaanwaron ki nahi hai..bachche aur jaanwar keh dete hain aur hum jo umer mein, rutabe mein badhe ho jaate hain keh nahi paate, chaah ker bhi, yeh asli mudda hai
Thanks
Anita

Dr.Parveen Chopra said...

When I think of it, I feel hugs are good, they relax both the parties . Hugs are needed at every age and not just in childhood. They are needed more in old age as a way of reassurance that these old people are still relevant and accepted in the society. Though one needs to differentiate between mechanical hugs (more as a part of ritual requirement) and warm hugs. Mechanical hugs are disgusting while warm hugs are rejuvenating.
Anitaji, I was a great experience reading this post. Oh, it was so moving to read about your association with your friend's dear mother, your 'huggy'connection with your dear mom......more so, when your dear father left for his heavenly abode. It was all so touching and must have flowed so carelessly from your pen !!
अनिता जी, मुझे भी पुरानी याद आ गई कि जब भी हम लोग अपनी नानी के यहां जाते तो मेरी मां और नानी खूब गले मिल कर मिलतीं.....सिर को एक कंधे से दूसरे कंधे पर रखतीं...यह सिलसिला शायद एक मिनट तक चलता रहता और हम बच्चू लोग दूर हैंड-पंप के पास खड़े रूआंसे से हो रहे होते। अब मेरी प्रोफैसर दीदी जब हमारे यहां आती है तो मेरी मां उसे भी कुछ उसी तरह जकड़ लेती है। लेकिन पता नहीं मुझे भी अपने मां के गले मिलने में इतनी झिझक क्यों है !!

अनूप शुक्ल said...

बढ़िया लेख है। इसे हिंदी में लिखना चाहिये था। आपकी मंशा के उलट शेर है-
कोई हाथ भी न मिलायेगा, जो गले मिलोगे तपाक से।
ये नये मिजाज का शहर है, जरा फ़ासले से मिला करो।

Shastri said...

Getting touches is one of the most basic needs in life for humans and also for animals of the higher level.

When we see a cute baby, the spontaneous action is to touch its cheeks, hug it or kiss it.

When a mother, or an elder one, consoles a weeping child, a disappointed one, or a terrified one, a hug works wonders -- and people do exactly that.

What would be marriage life if hugs are taken out of it.

Hugging, and getting hugged is a most basic necessity of all humans.

G Vishwanath said...

Anitajee,

Thanks for your mail alerting me about your latest blog post.
I request you to do this whenever you post something new.
I responded to your blog on searching for your long lost friend with a possibly helpful suggestion.

I read with interest and pleasure your post on the subject of hugs.
Pictures of the polar bears and the kittens too were charming abd most apt.

Hugs are the most intimate form of showing love and affection.
I have experienced all kinds of hugs and share your thoughts and feelings on this most common mode of displaying affection. No hand shake can capture the emotions felt during a warm hug.

I have also experienced a comletely different kind of hug that is the talk of the world.
Have you heard of the "Hugging Saint" ? I am referring to Mata Amritanandamayee.
She is a phenomenon indeed.

My wife is a great devotee of hers and a few years ago, she convinced me to accompany her on a visit to her Ashram in Kerala where we spent a couple of days as a guest of the Ashram.
I am neither an ardent believer nor a cynical sceptic in these matters.
I am neutral. I was frankly embarrassed about the prospect of being hugged by this lady and upon my wife's insistence, awaited my turn in the long queue with some trepidation.
When my turn came, it was simply an undescribable feeling. She gave me an unabashed and warm hug and also pinched my cheeks as if I was a six year old child and said in Malayalam (the only language she speaks),"My darling son!" Loosely translated in Hindi it would have been "Meraa Laadlaa!"

My wife watched with glee my utter embarrasment and proudly recounted this to all and sundry for months after.

That was un unforgettable hug!

Keep writing.
Regards
G Vishwanath, JP Nagar, Bangalore

नीरज गोस्वामी said...

Anita Ji

I am a proud punjabi because we Punjabi's only taught hugging in public to the entire world. Still you go to punjab and see it your self.."jaffi" is the word for it.
Great writting.

Neeraj

Mired Mirage said...

nice article. yes, a hug can express much more than a thousand words . i use hugs v often to show my affection to family and friends.every holi,diwali, gujarati new year day and at midnight on 31st dec/1st jan at our club party and then again another party at the ladies club i hug hundreds of children and ladies.there r numerous other occasions when hugging comes most naturally. i thoroughly enjoy the opportunity to express my love and affection.
of course, the hugs that i have given and received from my students have been like the icing on the hugging cake!
ghughutibasuti

महामंत्री-तस्लीम said...

लाजवाब पोस्ट है, और फोटो तो उससे भी ज्यादा लाजवाब।
हाँ, अगर पोस्ट हिन्दी में तो होती, तो कुछ और बात होती।

Swarnarekha said...

Anitaji,
aapka description about the most powerful non verbal communication is great...

Rajat Narula said...

Anita Ji,

Your narration is majestic and out of the world.

Regards,
Rajat Narula

Shivakant Tiwari said...

when we hug some body and there are no thoughts in the mind it is really a tru pleasure i did not read ur post throughly but stil u have a very deep feelings and i really feel like givin u a tight hug

Anonymous said...

The worst tempered people I've ever met were people who knew they were wrong.